When one door opens...

Part 1 - Check out this beautiful irony!

So I was recently debating the pros and cons of my job in order to decide whether or not I should stay or go.  The cons were heavy, lets just say that.  I also forgot two very large additions to the con list. 1) I have an anxiety disorder which causes panic attacks.  Said panic attacks are particularly threatening when I am overwhelmed by people (big crowds, the El, personal space invaders, etc...) so I am learning that being a host for a historic and famous Chicago Restaurant doesn't exactly pander to said anxiety disorder. This is a GIANT con. And 2) They've been promising to make me a server since the day they hired me and that has yet to happen, even though I've been reminding them repeatedly. With that promise in mind, they have hired 6 other servers since hiring me and one was hired as a host but he mostly serves. WTF (Those are not letters I often use but I feel they are necessary in this instance).

Now, all that being said, I decided to put in my two weeks notice (almost two weeks ago..), sadly once I finally summoned the courage to actually put in notice, my manager would not let me finish a sentence for almost a week.  Finally, on Saturday, October 23 (aka yesterday) I was able to actually say what I've been dying to do since about 3 weeks into working there (I've been there almost 7 months). I am done. I had a little panic attack in my mind as I was quitting about starving to death because I quit a job before getting a new one. I excitedly told one of my coworkers (who is also a friend) that I had finally done the dirty deed (of quitting, just to be clear) and she said that she thought that was great and that even though I didn't have another job yet sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do (and I did really have to do it). So she says to me "When one door closes another door opens" and that is really just so true.  At least for me.  I mean lets think about it. Out of a Mr. Wrong I was able to find my Mr. Right in his best friend (kinda awkward but whatever), out of realizing that I would rather direct than act after 4 years of school for acting I was able to realize that I want to be a teacher and help build theatre and arts programs in high schools where there aren't those opportunities and now I up and quit a job without having another job lined up and what happens??? I ALMOST IMMEDIATELY GET A FULL TIME JOB! So really all it took was me to just quit and say to hell with it, I will figure it out and suddenly my ducks line up for me. And all in the same day, AJ tells me that if he can't get a teaching position and he does decide to move, he would want me to come with him. All that damn worrying for nothing.  And I finally told him that I really want to be a teacher (I was afraid that he would think it was a bad idea) and he thought it was a good idea.  I guess I just needed to have some more faith. Karma has to pay off eventually right?