So I've come to a conclusion. I sorta know what I want to do with my life, which is pretty cool I guess. I want to run an art gallery some day. That or I want to go to school for Broadcasting. Either way I probably have to go back to school, and I have no means to do that so I guess that I'm going to have to keep trying to find a job that makes it so I can support myself and hopefully save some money.
Here's hoping I guess, I mean in the past three months I've sent out over 300 cover letters and resumes and I have gotten two responses. TWO. The first was for a job that turned out to be so part time that I'd have to keep the job I currently have, so that would defeat the purpose anyway. The second might work out, it's being a nanny and I'm good at that but the only work experience that gives me is for more nannying which isn't something I want to make a career of. At least it's money?
I don't know.
I can't decide whether I'd rather scrimp and starve and try and go back to school or if I just try to scrimp and starve and work at a job I hate. I hate not having my independence. Nothing is worse. I can barely take care of myself. actually scratch that, I can't take care of myself, mostly my boyfriend just takes care of me.
I have never been so lost or for that matter, I've never been so disappointed in myself before, I can't even begin to imagine how my parents must feel. Well shit, maybe I'm just screwed.
Well that was depressing. Cheers.
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